Wow almost 2010 Already!

What a crazy year it has been!

It was a great Christmas and a pretty good year all around. We recently took Christmas pictures and for the first TIME ever, I loved every single picture!

No rolls, no double chin, no cheesy smile. Just me and my beautiful family.

I am 7 months post op and I am holding at 177. Apparently 3 month stalls are normal around this time period and I'm hoping that by cutting out carbs that I will start losing again.

At this point I'm in size 8 tommy jeans, small and medium tops and a 9.5 shoe! Woohoo! My feet shrunk!

I cut my hair off and got it highlighted, totally different look for me. It shocks me how many people notice the weight loss, to me it's been so slow lately. The flattery is kind of hard to take, since I was always a wallflower, outgoing but never got attention. Not sure if I'll get used to the attention or maybe it'll diminish after awhile. It's hard being the skinny one, I look at my skinny friends and think, gosh I want to be that size and then I realize I AM that size! Holy shit!

Its hard to think about being anything other than fat. The holidays have been hard, I'm glad I'm 7 months post for the holidays, at least I can eat a little of everything.

So my goal for the new year (on top of all my business goals) are to get to goal by my 1 year appointment. 17lbs to 160, 150 seems way to low, but Ill try!

So that's how I'm going to end 2009, at 177lbs (well maybe I can get to 176 by the end of the week).

Happy New Year!

How I feel about Gastric Bypass - a Note to a friend

It was the best decision of my life. Old habits die hard, you have to make sure you are dedicated to changing them. People are going to constantly critisize what you eat, when you eat it and the attention you get isn't always positive. Men are going to hit on you more, sounds great right? Well if they didn't like you when you were heavy, they sure don't deserve you when you are thin. When you are close to goal, people will start telling you that you're too thin, I still have 12lbs to go to goal and I have to hit it or else whats the point, I'm still overweight. It kills relationships with friends, your skinny friends won't like you anymore because you're not the fat one and you WILL get more attention than them, your bigger friends won't trust you anymore because they think you are just like the skinny stuck up girls. BUT you'll love yourself more, build new relationships and live a healthier life without food dependency. Be ready to get on antidepressents about 4-5months post op, its normal. But it gets really bad, you don't feel like yourself in your own body. Now that the outside matches the inside you feel almost akward. you can't use food for comfort anymore. You'll lose your hair, no matter what you do. Your boobs dissapear lol! Sex is great! Until you hit the depression stage and then you don't want it at all lol! You become more compassionate, you share your fat stories of being kicked off roller coasters, not fitting in a booth, arm chairs sucked, getting passed up for jobs etc. You share your # with anyone because you're more secure. You're more self confident too! You're going to be talking about yourself a lot because everyone wants to know how it worked for you. Don't drink, ever again. Bariatric patients are at risk for cross addiction. My mom is now an alcoholic and has gained back half her weight. Oh and shopping sucks! There is too much to choose from and you never know your size. Get hand me downs now and don't do what I do and shop every week. One day I can be a size M in one brand and then an XS in another, 12 in jeans or 8 in slacks, nothing matches up and the weight comes off quickly! Don't obsess on the scale, it'll move quickly the first month and then seem slow. I'm stuck AGAIN! I'm still stuck between 177 and 180, I'm almost 6 months post op. Like I said, best decision ever, work your ass off to get to goal and then surgery will do the rest. Oh and it doesn't hurt as much as everyone says :)

11/2/2009 Measurements

5/26 7/5 (difference) 11/2/09 TOTAL Difference

Neck 15 14 -1 13.5 -1.5
Shoulders 49 46 -3 42 -7
Rt Upper Arm 15.5 14.25 -1.25 11 -2.5
Rt Lwr Arm 11.25 10.75 -.50 10 -1.25
Rt wrist 7 6 3/4 -.25 6.5 -.5
Chest 42 40 -2 38 -4
Bust 39 37 -2 33 -6
Belly 43 38.75 -4.25 36 -7
Waist 42 39 -3 37 -5
Lower Tummy 51 44 -7 (yes I have a belly dent lol) 43 -18
Hips 48 45 -3 42 -6
Butt 49 45 -4 42.5 -6.5
Rt Thigh 29 24 -5 23 -6
Rt Knee 17.5 17 -.5 17 -.5
Rt Calf 18.5 18 -.5 17 -1.5
Rt Ankle 10.5 10 -.5 9.5 -1

TOTAL Lost in 5 months

54.1lbs

74.25 Inches

Broke 180 FINALLY!!

179.9... that's more than 6 weeks to lose 5lbs.. incredibly hard... maybe itll continue to move down again. I have 9.9lbs to my high goal! I wanna get there before my birthday in a month and 2 days :) Crossing my fingers!

181/182

Wow... the weightloss slowed down a lot. I need to go to the gym more often. I can tell I'm still losing something because the clothes are getting smaller!

I'll post a picture later of a size small dress from Express! It's hard to believe even the skinny girls at the stores know what size I am and I have no idea. But gotta trust them, obviously they know.

I'd still like to get to 150, if I can break 180 EVER!! I'm hoping to go to the gym more often and tone up my arms, tummy and thighs. My boobs are still a D cup, but totally gone. I need boobs, I'll take donations!!

I still eat less than my kids but eat enough to feel full. I've been loading up on tea from Lets Do Tea, it's great! Plus I eat less when I drink tea. Trying to cut back on the snacking, bought a bag of pretzels the other day, that wasn't smart at all. I also need to drop the sugar free stuff, that's full of calories and does no good.

I just need a line of what I'm supposed to be eating right now. Today was full of steak and eggs, yummy! But I also had some pretzels, an a piece of sugar free chocolate. Still, probably under 500 calories. When do I start counting, ugh. Maybe I need to eat more? Less... who the hell knows!

School is over whelming and completely hard being post op! I gotta stop my Starbucks Latte's because thats a waste of 160 calories. Knowing this, I still get them! Bad habits come back fast, but at least this time I'm more than aware of it.

So hopefully in a month I'll be at least 175. It's slowing down, but at this point I'm hoping to be at least 170 by Christmas!!

3.5 Months Out and Feeling Fab!!

I am now 3.5 Months Out and I feel fabulous! I am trying to push myself to go to the gym, even if only 2 -3 nights a week. I need to go.I am about 185/186 right now and the picture I'm sharing is a size 8 dress that wasn't snug!

No buyers remorse, everything is great! No saggy skin :)

189.9!!!

13 Weeks Post Op and I am down to 189.9 with a bra, shirt and glasses on :) I was too lazy to take them off and really dont care lol! I'm in the 180's!!!

I met with my surgeon for my 3 month post op visit and she said I'm doing great and am looking at 150-160. That's fine with me, its coming off steadily now.

I get asked if I have issues with loose skin, nope, my arms are a little loose but not anymore loose or big than when I was 320 lbs, they look great if I say so myself. My thighs are still ginormis lol!

I plateau every few weeks and I can tell when I'm going to break it because things start making me feel "stuck", like you have heartburn or need to burp. My stomach can't eat that much at once. Some days I can eat the 3/4 cup I'm allowed at one time and some times I can eat one meatball, it just depends, when I break the plateau, I eat very little and then I'm back to eating fine and losing fine.

My weakness so far has been iced non fat lattes with caffine, as long as it's in moderation I'm fine. Sugar Free chocolate, sugar free ice cream and crackers. I don't have to have it, but I treat myself to it.

I asked my surgeon about excersize, I admitted, I've been to the gym very far and few between. She said the lighter I get the more I'll want to go and that at this point she doesn't see a problem with my weight loss to add in exercsize (more than the walking I'm doing) except to tone up.

We went to Disneyland, Six Flags, the beach and all that lately and Im loving this change. I fit in the rides without any problem, with room like I feel like I'm going to fall out, Pat can sweep me off my feet and throw me around, I fit in chairs without my butt hanging over. It's amazing what a difference it makes. So August makes my 1 year from Orientation and that means I am down (from 265 to 189.9) Wow, I could have never done it without surgery.

I am in a Large Target or Old Navy Top, XL Juniors dress from WALMART - which we all know runs small!, 12 jeans and almost to my 10 slacks.

When I look at pictures I can see the change, it's amazing how much my face has changed and my body. My calves aren't incredible huge like I thought they'd be after losing weight.

My biggest issue now after WLS, charlie horses! But I can survive those lol! And spending too much money on clothes because nothing fits long enough, but I can survive that too - just gotta do more parties!

It's Official!!

199.9lbs this morning! I am officially in onederland 9 weeks post op!!

That is amazing! 34lbs in 9 weeks, size 14 jeans, size 12 slacks!

I am beyond amazed at my progressed. That means 49.9lbs left till my low end goal!!

I'll be gone for 2 weeks, but home for 2 days in between, so it'll be interesting to see if I lose while i'm gone with no refridgerator. Wonder what I'll eat, lots of Tuna and crackers I'd assume!

Almost 9 Weeks Post Op

I'm hoping at 9 Weeks Post Op Ill be in OnederLand!! 2 Days short of 9 weeks and I'm loving my RNY!

I haven't had any vomitting since two incidents when I didn't chew enough.

Today I had a major migraine I think from not sleeping well at night :) But that's because I leave for my residency for sign language on Sunday night and I'm going to be missing my babies!

The preschool asked me to come and teach sign to the kids during circle time, so in fall I'm going to come in a few days a week and teach. That'll be awesome.

I'm also waiting for the Yoga Studio to have their session on their teaching class so I can enroll. If all goes to plan than I will start the first weekend in October.

This week I need to go and buy some size 12 slacks, none of my 14's fit! That's awesome :) My 14 jeans fit perfectly INC too!

So this morning I was 200.3lbs! The scale hates me lol!

Here are some pictures from last Mondays (7.5 weeks post op) anniversary pictures (Size 14 dress!)

6 week post op pictures!

7 Weeks Post Op :) 204lbs

6 Weeks Post Op

Here are pictures from the Zoo :)

I'm Shrinking

So today is 5 weeks and 5 days post op!

I am 209.0 even (at night of all times) - I took my measurements tonight and had to weigh.

I was told today at Macys women that I don't belong down there, in the nicest way possible. So I went to the women's department and was completely overwhelmed. Crazy!

So here are my measurements (in inches)!

Body Part 5/26 7/5 Difference

Neck 15 14 -1
Shoulders 49 46 -3
Rt Upper Arm 15.5 14.25 -1.25
Rt Lwr Arm 11.25 10.75 -.50
Rt wrist 7 6 3/4 -.25
Chest 42 40 -2
Bust 39 37 -2
Belly 43 38.75 -4.25
Waist 42 39 -3
Lower Tummy 51 44 -7 (yes I have a belly dent lol)
Hips 48 45 -3
Butt 49 45 -4
Rt Thigh 29 24 -5
Rt Knee 17.5 17 -.5
Rt Calf 18.5 18 -.5
Rt Ankle 10.5 10 -.5

1 Month Post Op and Loving It!

Today I am 1 month Post Op! Wow... 21lbs gone! I was 213 this morning, what an accomplishment. I can't wait to get back to the gym and watch it come off faster!

My goal is to be in onederland by Passion Power (17th of July). That's totally doable!

I am trying to find new foods that I like... I love turkey sausage and turkey patties, trying veggie italian sausage... it's alright but falls apart, but its good for protein.

I've found that lately a lot of people are shocked that I have had surgery and a lot are considering lap band and gastric.

My biggest advice to these people, watch your addictions because you're going to replace food with something else. I haven't but I'm aware.

I dont understand how come people go through major surgery to continue smoking, drinking, over eating etc. Bending all the rules, why set yourself up for failure....

Rant over...I'm happy! I'm shrinking and I can see it. I'm in a comfy size 16 jeans... awesome!

Nearly 4 Weeks Post Op

Wow, time sure does go by fast! So fast I forgot to blog!

So I'm having problems with snacking at this point, but at least I'm grabbing pistachios or almonds.

It hasn't had a detrimental effect to my weight loss, if anything it seems to be helping. I was stuck for such a long time.

This morning I was 216.2, thank heaven! That's nearly 18lbs down in 4 weeks, granted 2lbs in 2 weeks is really slow, but the nutritionist says it'll pick up.

The exhaustion hit in at week 2, it really sucks. I sleep in, take a nap and get soooo tired. I don't have the energy for anything.

A few days ago I started getting leg cramps, thought it might be a clot, but it wasn't. Now i have constant tightening and charlie horses in my left leg. I can't eat bananas since they have so much sugar in them.

I've been horrible about taking the nasty calcium citrate, so I'm waiting for my new Calcium Citrate Chocolate Chewables.

As for the difference in weight/inches, I can tell. I've lost 3 in my waist, 3 in my bust and numerous inches elsewhere.

I'm on soft foods, but have found that turkey sausage is my best friend. 2.5 patties = 150 calories and is exactly 2 ounces. Or 1 egg with cheese omelet.

Lunch is one large slice of lunch meat and a cheese square (or string cheese)

Dinner varies from skinless chicken, shrimp, salmon or chilli.

I got stuck ONCE, on salmon. It was just too dry, it was fresh salmon, not canned. Guess it wasn't soft enough. OMG and then I drank after a meal on accident once... it hurt sooooo bad... don't do it! Wait the hour!

Anyways, now that it's getting hot and baby gets his cast off on the 2nd, I expect to be much more active. I only walked around the block twice today. I wanted to do my 2 mile walk, have only done it once since surgery.

So I am cleared for the gym next week, cleared for swimming already. It's hot here.. ick.

I have my post op follow up on the 8th. That's another 2.5 weeks away, I'd love to be down 10lbs by then, high hopes? Not if I do what I'm supposed to! So now... the pictures...

10 Days Post Op - 100lbs TOTAL LOSS!!

So today is day 10, post op!

Holy Smokes, would you believe it the scale said: 220.4 this morning!

That means I've lost OVER 100lbs! The last time I looked at the scale after I had Jayson (before I started losing) was over 320lbs.

So I'm incredibly happy. How did I reward myself? With $100 in clothes (all sizes 12 and smaller)

I will get there!

I'm feeling great, trying to get past head hunger. I've been able to eat everything I'm allowed (and not allowed: pistacios chewed to butter lol) without any problems. I'm getting around 48 ounces or so of liquids (includes broths and sf jell-o) and everything goes down fine.

So that's 10 days post op.. thats 14lbs lost since surgery. An average of 1.4lbs per day! Incredible!

1 Week Post Op and Feeling Great!

So it's one week post op and I'm feeling almost 100%!

I've been on creamies for 4 or so days and I'm already tired of pureed food, but I make it better with chilli and guacamole lol! Good fats, high protein and good calories.

So after 1 week, over 5 bags of fluid, I am 224.1lbs! That's a loss of 10lbs in 1 week!

Holy Moly! That's amazing.

Everyone asks, "can you feel the difference?"

Can I? Hmm.. well I can't guzzle water, but now after a week I can take bigger sips.

I can't walk too fast or I get dizzy and tired

My stomach feels fine, except a little itches because of the steri strips.

At 3 days post op I was off of the narcotics and I could sleep in my own bed on my tummy.

I love Maryland Style Crab Soup Broth, it's delicious. I tried blending it, but the celery skins bug me for texture.

Blended Clam Chowder is alright too.

But heck, I'll eat anything to lose 10lbs a week! That's incredible. I am nearly the same weight I was in high school.

I remember because for diving I switched the numbers on my physical form from 220 to 200 lol! I was sooo embarassed of my weight but I was a great diver. I'd love to coach one of these days.

So this week Cynthia has been coming over to help so Pat could do some work and she could help with baby. Man is he bored, he is ready to jump around, run around, ride around and more.

I think he's depressed. Can babies be depressed?

Me on the other hand, I want to do too much. Just going to the store is exhausting. Not to mention no belly leverage for pushing the cart lol! Or opening things, cuz it hurts.

Last night I did a dumb thing, I jumped on the bed on my tummy! OUCH!!

But it's all good, Just stung a little lol.

Anyways, that's 1 week post op :P

RNY Complete

Hey everyone! Sip sip sip... walk walk walk...

So I was scheduled to be there at 12:30 yesterday, finally got in at 1:30. My husband stayed till 2pm.

The blood thinner shot hurt like hell lol! Tried to ignore the pain, hoped I didn't bruise, well I did lol!

The iv wasn't bad. Watched some tv, blind might I add without my contacts.

At 3pm I went in, got up on the table. The OR was really nice (new operating rooms lol). I was just watching the lights and then they put the mask over my face, felt the pressure on my neck and that's the last I remember.

I remember waking up in recovery, my throat hurt so bad. No one could understand me lol the recovery room nurse was a total biotch... the man was nice. She was yelling, like i couldn't hear her (to other people) freaking me out. Omg it was sooo loud.

I got to the room and the first thing I asked for was my phone. I had created a surgery group on my phone so I only had to text one person lol! So I texted everyone that wanted updates. Got too many replies to respond too lol

The pain wasn't as bad as everyone said. It's tolerable, the pain meds they give you suck lol, I was so gassy and nauseated. I think that is the worst part, the pain from the wounds and the incisions isn't bad at all.

I got up at 2 am and walked like 10 laps lol thought it was 7am. I was asking for my carafate since I was empty and she was like, you'll get it at 9, after breakfast at 7:30. Then I get back and it's only 2am! So my roomie (from Vallejo) and I chatted it up.

I went into surgery at 234! Woohoo.. 6lbs under goal.

Right now it's hard to move without getting gas pains. I'm on the awful liquid vicadin and the carafate.

bought some gas-x strips today and some mints. Man it is nice to have something to suck on lol! About to get me a sugar free popscicle.

So that's my update. My poor husband has my 3 year old, my 2 year old in a body cast and me crying of gas pains to take care of.

I probably should have rescheduled because I feel so guilty, but I'm glad I went through with it, because it's too late to go back now!

Memorial Day

Well today is Monday May 25th, Happy Memorial Day - NOT

Saturday morning I got up at about 9:15, spent most of Friday night cleaning getting ready for Brandy (our roomates) welcome back party scheduled for Saturday evening.

So around 9:30 I hear the kids jumping around upstairs and the bath water running, since they needed a bath before we ran errans.

Well not 5 minutes later my husband rushes down stairs and says the baby (jayson, he'll be two in 3 weeks) twisted his leg and he heard a pop.

He hands me the baby and says he feels dizzy and nauseated. He lays on the floor and is sweating profusely while I have a crying baby. I checked his leg, everything felt intact, nothing protruding. Bent his knee and he screams and I can hear the cracking.

So I tell Pat to call the advice nurse, he thinks he's just hungry but he is incoherant. Had to ask me for Kaiser's number when it's programmed in the phone. We would have called 911 if we knew it was broken, but when I think pop, I think dislocation, pop it back right?

So they send us to minor injury in Vallejo. We got up there about 10am. We are seen pretty quickly, but then the wait for an xray is an hour or two. Then the doctor.

When Pat came back from the Xray (omg hearing the baby scream in soooo much pain in the xray room was awful). He said the technician said he can't diagnose anything but showed him the break. How awful. It's called a spiral fracture of his femur. His thigh bone, the strongest bone in our body he broke jumping on the bed. Go figure.

So now we know it's broken, but have to pretend to be uninformed. The orthepedic surgeon is sent in and tells us it is broken and that they have to do surgery. But it's only surgery because they have to put him to sleep. That he'll be in a "spica" cast that goes up to under his arms for 6-8 weeks. She says they'll do surgery as soon as the OR opens up. The nurse in the MIC gave Jayson a bear, I gave it a broken leg and then he threw it down and I gave it a broken arm. You'll see him throughout the pictures.



Now we're scared, they splint him and we worry. We text and call everyone in Pat's phone because we ran out without mine. We were all in our pajamas, jayson only had a shirt and a diaper because he was getting ready for bath.

After a few hours they tell us that they won't operate at Vallejo because the anesthisalogist doesn't feel comfortable putting a baby to sleep. Poor Jayson is in the same position for hours, curled up and in pain.

They want to send us to Oakland to their pediatrics department. They got an admitting pediatric surgeon and orthepedic surgeon and anesthisalogist. BUT they don't have a room for him so we'll have to wait. It was about 3 when I pitched another fit about what was happening. I told them they need to call SF and Sac Kaiser and see if they have everything we need. Finally they did and got us into Roseville. I don't remember what time the ambulence finally arrived but they did. Jayson screamed when they put him in the carseat gurney, they didn't even know how to work it because they've never transported a baby without a real car seat. (Had they told us they needed a car seat, Pat would have left ours when they left to get dinner for Raymond).


So Jayson and I rode to Roseville and Pat took care of Ray, poor kid was stuck in the room with us all day bored out of his mind.

When we got to Roseville he got his own room and his own bed. He was still in pain. They'd be giving him Tylenol with Codeine every 4 hours, but it didn't seem like it worked much.

We met with the orthepedic surgeon around 7pm, he was really nice and really informative. Told us about the spica cast and how it was going to be a long 6-8 weeks. Hearing it and seeing it are two different things. He said they'd put an IV in and then around 10 or 10:30 they'd bring him in the OR and then put him to sleep through his IV. He told me the side effects and risks of putting him under, but how else were we going to fix him?

When the nurses put the IV in, it felt like forever, the needle bent and she couldn't get it to flush properly. He cried and cried and shrilled in pain. I almost threw up, mother's instint was to protect him and my blood pressure shot up, i was pissed it was taking so long and I was dehydrated, hadn't drank anything since the night before and it was now almost 8pm. They brought me some ice water and I was alright.


He was okay too, super hurt but alright.

He took a cat nap of about 20 minutes and we watched Cars the movie and hung out.

Around 11:00 they started to prep him for surgery, getting his crib ready and rolling him into the pre-op area. I got to stay, he was fast asleep. I met with the doctors and they told me everything they'd do. The anesthisalogist said that he would just put the anesthisia through the IV since he already had one.

I was then sent to the waiting room while my poor baby slept through his cast.

At 2am they called me back, he was asleep and OMG the cast freaked me out. My poor buddah baby all covered in a full cast. Now I thought he'd be in a "partially" seated position. NOT. He was completely flat! OMG.. how were we going to move him, how would he eat.. anything...
I cried... and cried... and cried. The only part that is bent is his right knee :(



I called Pat and he was frustrated that he hadn't heard from me since 11:30, his cell had died (the one I had) so I couldn't call till I got to recovery. So of course, we're all tired and the convo was mostly my tears.

We got back to the room at about 2:30 and he was still asleep. We slept until 5:30 and then he was up. Then he saw and felt the cast and freaked out. That was hard... He said "OFF" and tried pushing it off. Do you know how hard it is to explain to a 23 month old that his leg is broken and he has something foreign on him for what will seem like forever?

So the next few hours we cat napped for 5 minutes here and there. By 8 he got milk and cheerios. His instinct was to use his arms to try to push himself up. He was mad when he couldn't do it :( It was horrible to see... horrible.. he was used to being almost self sufficient and now he has to rely on us for everything.

Around 9 Pat comes to the hospital. Tells us he got a speeding ticket for going 80 on i-80, apparently it was a no tolerance weekend. After showing him the pictures and telling him about Jayson, the asshole still gave him a ticket. WTF plus gave him a citation for not having an updated address on his license. Shitty.

We were supposed to be discharged at 11 with a car seat and a wheel chair. Well 11 came and went.

Finally at 1 we get the discharge papers and are walked to the car. We go to put him in the carseat and he doesn't fit. The straps are too short. I cried.. how were we going to get home? I freaked out. Poor Raymond had been at the hospital once again, was starving, baby is scared, Pat and I are tired and now we're stuck.

Pat and baby went back into the hospital to figure it out. I drove around for an hour looking for food for us to eat. Meanwhile Raymond fell asleep in the car. So we get back to the hospital and I run in food for Pat and baby and go to park and wait to see what's going on.

So then they talk about a "vest" that he would lay on in the back seat so I'd need my dad to come pick up Ray and I. So my dad takes off from Napa and then Pat calls and says they are going to transport them via gurney services to the house. So I call my dad and tell him to head to our house and meet us there. About 3:30.

Well I go to pull out of the parking spot and the car dies. Ran out of fucking gas... SERIOUSLY!!! Are you FUCKING kidding? Yeah.. well what are we gonna do? We're in ROSEVILLE. So the social worker calls security, they can't do anything but not ticket or tow me since I'm in 20 minute parking.

I call my dad to come up and bring me gas. Then Brandy says she will. Then the Social worker said she will. So I cancel my dad and Brandy lol and the social worker goes and gets me gas. What a lifesaver.

By 4:15 we are on the road.

Around 6 on Sunday night Pat gets in the ambulence to go home. My poor baby was finally home.

Who knew all this would happen just a few days before surgery. I've gone back and forth the past few days about cancelling but the only time I'd be able to do it would be next summer. Why not just have Pat work harder for 6 weeks now than 12 weeks total lol! We had planned for him to be home the next 6 weeks anyways to take care of me, so now we just have a baby home too.

I can push him in the stroller, hold him and change his diaper after surgery. It'll be hard, but we'll manage. Raymond will probably feel it the most since baby is getting the most attention but he likes that he has more computer time now.

Tomorrow I have to get our swim lessons refunded or moved for Jayson. Hopefully I'll be well enough by the 22nd of June for Raymond's swim lessons, I'm sure I will be.

Anyways, that's my update. He's sleeping now in his bed, on lots of pillows, in the living room. we'll change his diaper in another 30 minutes and then try and get some sleep. Here is a picture of him and raymond on the bean bag. Raymond got iron man glasses and jay got batman. They came in usefull for our walk today.


Tomorrow is my last day before surgery. Though I'm excited, I'm nervous about how we'll handle it.

Thank god a Passion Parties gal on my team, dear Cynthia, is going to come over the day of surgery and watch Jayson while we drop off Raymond and Pat takes me to the hospital. Then she'll come on Thursday to watch him while Pat picks me up. Every one is being great, Nick and Lindsey and his daughter brought Jay a dolphin, Kim and Denise are going to make him pants. Pat's dad went for a walk with us to the store today and Raymond rode his bike the whole way there and back.

Walking will be great after surgery and now we have a great reason, since we can't just drive anywhere now. I just had a great idea! THE BUS! We can take the bus around lol! Ghetto Fairfield Public Transit, but at least he doesn't have to have a car seat lol!

That's my update.

8 days left to go...

Wow... time sure does fly when you're having FUN! NOT!

Only 8 days left and I'll be having the RNY!

My biggest concern at this point - not meeting goal!

Last suppers are killing me, trying to get all the stuff I want in, while trying to stay under goal. I have a 3lb cushion but with bloating I could be up 3 lbs the next day.

My second concern - not waking up!

I think that's probably most people's concerns with major surgery is being put under and not waking up. I've already told my husband my arrangements just in case, the chances are slim but you can't be too careful and I absolutely still want to do this.

This is my future, I can take a chance now while mostly healthy or in 25 years and live 25 years overweight and miserable and miss out on my kids lives.

I've been suffering from major hay fever and a sinus infection I think. Tried a nettie pot today and it felt like I just went swimming. It actually helped for an hour or so.

I was going through my vitamins and I think I got the wrong Multi, so I'm going to go get the other ones they recommended. I bought them at bariatricadvantage, should have just gone to the store, but i didn't want to look like an idiot looking all over lol!

I have the pre-op classes on Thursday and then I meet with the surgeon. I am super ready an super excited. I re-read my bariatric binder and realized that there are a lot more foods that I CAN eat that I didn't think I could. So that was kind of a relief.

So yeah, 8 days left till surgery! I'm ready to go!

RNY in 3 Weeks

The above pictures are of me in high school, sophmore and junior year.

Nicole encouraged me to start a blog about my WLS.

I am a mom of two boys, ages 3 and 2 (in June 2009). My husband and I live in Suisun and own a construction company. I am also a Passion Parties consultant and a full time Psychology major at Sac State.

I started this journey for WLS in June 2008 when I requested a referral to the bariatrics department. I weighed 265lbs.

I have always been heavy, at my lightest I was 200lbs my freshman year of high school. At 5'7" tall I was always the big girl. BUT I was active in sports and was on the Varsity diving team at Fairfield High through my Junior year.

At my highest weight, June 2007, I was 320lbs!

In August 2008, I attended the Orientation and Nutrition appointments at Kaiser Richmond.

In October 2008 I attended the Psych portion of the process

In December 2008 I attended the Surgeon appointment and was given a goal weight of 240lbs

Feb 1, 2009 I reached my goal weight

I met with the case manager in mid March 2009 at 237 lbs

Due to my extremely jammed back school schedule I couldn't get a surgery date, since finals weren't until after the 20th of May.

My surgery date is May 27th! I am super excited.

I chose RNY over the lap band because we are done having children (at least biologically) and I have about 85lbs left to lose, I'd like to lose more than 50% of that within the first year.

My ultimate weight loss goal is 150, although I worry about being too thin, I think it's a good goal to set.

Here are some pictures before my kids




Here is me after my kids (not much change since the wedding)



Here are pictures of me in March 2009






3 More weeks to go!